Annnnd - I'm back

So I've passed my test, let go of insecurities, and have only a year and some change to go in school (yaaaay!).

Lets put up some updates.

- Navy:
Nothing has been the same since I left for chicago. The way things went down while I was studying has changed us. We use to be perfect, at least now when I look back on it, but now we're just... here. My suspicions were correct about the stupid blonde chasing him. They were confirmed by him as well as his friends. He is adamant that nothing went down between them physically and I have chosen to trust him on this. But again, the way things went down during my test were not cool - and I'm starting to realize that as much as I want things to work with him, they probably won't.

My best friend keeps trying to relate it to her sociology class. Something about people of different classes only working when one or the other morphs into the other's class system. She spat out a couple of categories and placed Navy in one and Me in the other. It made sense, I'm more education/white collar while navy is more work/industry oriented. Whereas my whole life has been based on knowing I would always go to college because there was no other option, his has been to get into the working field and make money with a good solid job - he doesn't understand the point of getting a degree.

Long story short, I don't think I see myself spending the rest of my life with him. I'm trying to think things clearly and put everything on the table to analyze my current options, and navy - well navy is trying his hardest to keep me. I don't know if he's realized how shitty I've felt around him or maybe he just senses me closing off - but he's definitely trying.

It's sad, I'm going to hate losing him... but I just don't see this working in the long run.

- School:
It's going well! Much better and less hectic than the first half. I did well on my test, landed one of the best IM sites we have on our curriculum and am headed into surgery soon :). The more I'm in this field the more I'm thinking of doing doctors without borders... we'll see...

nothing else is really going on. There are some side stories which might have been fun to describe had I been blogging during the events, but recaps would be pointless. however, I will try to blog more and yes - hospital drama IS a lot like grey's anatomy :)