The topic of conversation has been coming up concerning what direction I should take my career. Most people point out the money. "You should do this because you'll get paid tons," or "This field makes loads of money," yadda yadda yadda. I've kept my mouth surprisingly shut though most of the time I want to scream: I AM NOT DOING THIS FOR THE MONEY!
I can honestly say I would be happy if I had enough to get by. It seems like money is more of an issue for my friends and family than it is for me. The guy I marry needs to have money, because I'll be making money and heaven forbid I make more than him. The car I drive needs to be expensive because people look at that and it means something. Where I live must be expensive and upscale because yet again, heaven forbid I live somewhere modest.
I will admit, later in life when I have children I don't want them to grow up in the ghetto. I want them to grow up comfortably, yet understand the value of money. I want them to grow in a safe environment where doors can be left unlocked, and neighbors are trusted to watch them or have them over for cookies and milk without seducing them. I understand this all takes money of some sort - to take them out of the filth society has built for itself... but why oh why must it always come down to that?
Why can't I move to rural pennsylvania, in a small town where property is cheap by the acres? Why can't I move to a random beachfront property in texas or florida - where no one really goes to, and is shielded from the corruption of bigger, badder, more expensive locations? Why can't I just go somewhere, live comfortably, and have a normal life without worrying about money?
I want to help those who can't help themselves. I want to go places where people aren't able to get the attention those here in the state take for granted. I want to give people things they sometimes need, not wait hand on foot on those who just want.
I want to make a difference.
I will make a difference.
And the money... may never be enjoyed if I'm only going to use it for the benefit of those I love, or those who need it more than I do.
